I came to a conclusion this weekend. Shayne and I were at a friend's wedding (In Malibu. At the Sunset Restaurant. Picture above, and if I hadn't taken it with my iPhone, you might actually be able to tell how gorgeous it really was.) and we were sitting in our chairs on the beach waiting for the ceremony to start, chatting with another friend about her upcoming wedding, and I realized that I am literally never going to get over the excitement of being engaged.
I know we've had a fairly quick engagement (just about five months by the time it's all said and done), and it's been jam-packed with wedding decisions and the work of beginning to consolidate our lives (aka convincing Shayne that the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle bowls that his landlord left in a kitchen cupboard, along with several other less desirable items, don't really need to be part of our kitchen. Especially if space constraints force us to choose between our wineglasses and the aforementioned shell-shaped dishware.), but it's been so utterly thrilling, every step of the way.
I mean, I get to wake up every morning knowing that I'm going to marry my best friend. That I get to spend the rest of my life with him, climbing mountains and building forts (no joke) and having wine nights where we do our best to pretend that we're true connoisseurs. And, you know, pay bills and all that stuff too. We're almost to the end of this engagement period where all we're doing is working through the potential of not only our wedding and our time to celebrate with our family and friends, but also the potential of our marriage relationship, and even with the emotional ups and downs that planning this wedding has brought, we seem to only get better at loving each other every day.
It helps that I don't think I've ever been so completely excited about anything in my life. This is such a unique stretch of time. It really is, between all the wedding coordinating meetings and managing of spreadsheets and R.S.V.P. lists, an incredible opportunity to seriously think about the things that we value in our relationships, and where we're going to get to see them grow and develop. And, being currently engaged, I'm reminded of those things every time I look at my ring, or every time I get to say the word fiancé or make (yet another) ceremony decision.
Plus, I've always been a "happily ever after" kind of kid, and right now I can almost touch mine. What on earth could be more exciting than that?